This morning I couldn’t think of anything to write about, I asked my girlfriend to help me and she told me to take a look over at the daily prompt. I read it aloud to her, “What is the one word or phrase that immediately cheers you up when you hear it?”, she looked at me and said, “how about ‘I love you’?”. I Thought about it and decided that was actually a really good idea. She does so much for me when I’m down and nothing cheers me up more than hearing her say I love you. So today I want to write something for her, for my love, Chardonnay, for everything she does for me.
In the mornings when I struggle just make make it out of bed, get ready, and get out of the door, you help me. When I am feeling down and angry, you make sure I start my day with an I love you and a kiss. You help me get going, you make sure I have breakfast, and you make sure to give me a moment of your time. When I leave the house feeling like I look horrible and myself esteem is low you reassure me that I am beautiful, capable, and intelligent. Before you leave the car you hug me and tell me you love me and you hope I have a wonderful day.
When I’m having a bad day, I know you are busy and you don’t always have time for me and my emotional shit, but you try, you do your best. You come visit me when you get a free moment. You let me know you love me and that as soon as we get home you will take time just for me. You send me texts with sweet words and cute emojis. You send me funny pictures and you take breaks so I can call you when I need to.
Every night when we get home you get right into cleaning the house and cooking us dinner. I whine and moan that I miss you and that I need you but you let me know that you need to do these things so that you can devote the rest of the night to me. You motivate me to do the things I need to do in the meantime and afterwards we sit down and eat the delicious meal you cooked. You listen to me complain about work and I do the same for you and you reassure me even more that you love me, that you are happy, and that I am everything you want. When we go to bed at night we go together and you make sure the last thing I hear every night is that you love me and you are happy with me.
When the days are really bad you take me out to dinner and possible margaritas. This is my favorite time because then we can talk, just me and you. I tell you about all all my crazy ideas and schemes and you listen and you support everything. You look at me like I could do anything and you tell me I should try. I feel so insecure and embarrassed then. I feel stupid and small and you always, always tell me that u love me and nothing I think is stupid. Nothing I want to do is stupid. You let me know that I am not stupid.
So thank you, because when I am down you are always the one to make it all better. You have been the single greatest thing that has ever happened to me and you understand me and what I need in a way that no one else ever could.
I love you too Chardonnay, and I always will.