I have been feeling really proud of myself lately. Not that I have done anything very big or very amazing but I am taking baby step forward. My goal has always been to get to a point where I can honestly say I am an artist and I am a writer. I don’t quite feel like I am there yet but I do feel a change happening in my mind. I feel myself seeing the world differently. Everything is an inspiration now.
I only struggle now to find a way to type out what is in my head or get a drawing i want to do down on paper. I am making progress though, I am getting there. I know now that the only thing holding me back is fear. Fear of failing, fear of finding out I have no talent, fear of being laughed at, fear of the “big unknown”. My fear left me paralyzed, but not anymore, now I take baby steps and I praise myself for every accomplishment and I learn everything I can from every failure and keep pushing forward.
My first goal was to write 750 words a day. I forget sometimes, but I am getting better. I find it is better to write in the morning or early afternoon rather than at night. I have more energy and my fingers can skip across the keyboard almost as fast as my mind can think the words. I realized that through free writing there I often spill things from my mind that I barely knew were there. Next thing I know I have a few bits and pieces for a blog post.
I have also been trying to blog at least a few times a week. I admit I am still struggling to find a flow for this blog. I am still learning and I think I have made progress. I am at least writing often, almost daily. I started out wanting to write about society and the human condition and how to move toward a happier life, but now I think I might be heading in a different direction. Not an entirely different direction, just maybe not on as grand a scale as I had originally thought. Maybe this blog will just be about me and my little life for now. Maybe that will be enough.
Joining the #yearofcreativehabits challenge. I just started this but so far I love it. Crystal Moody’s blog has been so inspiring and she has a way of writing that makes the idea of starting a small, daily, creative habit seem like the the most exciting thing. She got me excited about it and I haven’t drawn anything in years! I’ve already done four consecutive days and as soon as I’m done typing this I will start on day five’s drawing. If you want to follow along I encourage you to check out her blog and Tag Board. If you are interested, you can see my drawings over on my Instagram.
Even though I am just starting out and I barely know what I am doing or where I am heading with any of this, I am proud of myself. I am proud of myself for just doing something everyday. I never did anything before because it seemed like I just couldn’t but now I know I can. Through small changes, good habits, and a positive outlook who know where I could end up.
So readers, what I want to know today is, what do you think? What things are you all doing that you are proud of? Do you free write? If you are new to blogging how is it going for you? What do you think of my blog so far? And lastly, do you have and advice for me? I am always looking for some tips about writing, blogging, and creativity. Help a girl out!