Today is for celebrating love. Around here it’s not celebrated with big expensive gifts or dozens of roses or big boxes of chocolate. Today we are celebrating by just being mindful of each other and our feelings. Which means we are just spending time together and being sappy romantics.
We do have plans of course, dinner at a nice seafood restaurant and a showing of 50 Shades of Grey*. I bought her a sweet (and very nerdy) Valentine’s Day card and I wrote a few lines about how much I love her and how lucky I am and why. I bought a few chocolates, the ones that are her favorites and I tied them up with red and white ribbon. She will like that.
We make only a little effort in the gifts but to us that isn’t what it is about. We don’t believe that love can be fully expressed by things you can buy. We show each other love by laying in bed and talking. We show each other love with jokes and play fighting. We show each other love by watching stupid videos and movie trailers together, or talking about concerts we want to see, and books we want to read.
We show each other love by each of us being our boring selves while finding the other fascinating. I hope that makes sense.
Sometimes I feel like I must be living the closest thing there is to a fairy tale relationship. We have our problems and our fights here and there sure. But after 12 years together we still have so much to learn about each other. After 12 years we still have so much fun! And after 12 years she is still the smartest, most interesting, and sexiest woman I know!
When we talk about how long we have been together we always feel a little surprised it has been that long. We still feel like teenagers falling in love. We still feel that incredible excitement of falling in love but the confusion of not knowing how exactly to express it or how to move forward. All we know is we want to spend all our time together, watching movies, and giggling, and making out.
When I hear the way other couples talk about Each other I really get sad. The things people say about the person they are supposed to love the most in this world is heartbreaking. Why people stay in relationships that make them so unhappy? I wish they could all go out and find the kind of love I was so lucky to have found. I want everyone to feel the way I feel everyday.
I have to start getting ready for the day but before I go, I want to share a poem by Emery Allen that reminds me very much of my girlfriend and the way I feel about her, and the way I hope she feels about herself:
Kiss your own fingertips
And hug your own curves.
You are made of waves and honey
And spicy peppers when necessary.
You are a goddess,
I hope you haven’t forgotten
My lady is a very tall and curvy girl, and she is made of waves and honey. To me waves are emotions and honey is sweetness, but not the same as sugar. Honey has it’s own distinct flavor. She is definitely made of spicy peppers! She has a habit of being a bit harsh and blunt, sometimes she can even be pretty mean. Not many women can pull of both sweet and spicy.
She is very much a goddess. She is Athena, the goddess law and justice, and of war. She is Artemis, goddess of the moon and the wilderness and the hunt. She is even Nemesis, the goddess of righteous anger!
This is how I see her in my mind’s eye. I know she doesn’t see herself that way so I do my best to let her know just how amazing she is. I never want her to forget that. I want her to kiss her own fingertips and hug her own curves but on the days when she can’t, I will be there to do it for her. I am lucky to have her in my life and I could never have asked for a better girlfriend, fiancé, and wife.
* Please do not judge me for seeing the movie. I am aware of the controversy but still accept that this is someones fantasy and I find it interesting and want to see for myself how the movie portrays the characters, their relationship, and BDSM.