If we were having coffee I would have mine strong and dark and if possible I’d make it two cups. I find myself exhausted today and the weather is cold and the news is calling for snow through the middle of the week. I cannot tell you how tired I am of winter. I do my best to keep a positive attitude and look for the good but Mother Nature is trying my patience. I go through this every year though. Colorado winters are long and sometimes harsh and every year I get angry and depressed. I know that I should consider moving but the Summer, however short, are beautiful. I look forward to summer, when I can forget the winter even exists at all. Right before I am trapped here again next winter.
If we were having coffee I would tell you that last week was both good and bad. I got a lot done at work but I also lost my temper and my motivation towards the end. My temper came down to a co-worker who likes to antagonize me finding out the best way to do so. Me and this co-worker are basically “frienemies”. We are nice to each others faces but I think we both are competing. I don’t mean to though and would be happy to continue quietly doing my work but she keeps pushing me, especially when she knows I am already on the edge.
This week I was irritable because of the weather and the announcement that staff members at my job were going to be moved around, my girlfriend is on staff you see. Then after getting back from my route I was bombarded with complaints of other co-workers, that’s when she pounced. Her go to strategy to piss me off is to make snide remarks with a smile so I can’t claim she is being mean. I blew up at her a little and I am mad at myself for allowing another person to get under my skin. I am usually pretty good about staying calm in situations like that but for some reason she always pushes me over the edge. I won’t let that happen again.
If we were having coffee I would tell you that those previously mentioned changes to staff are really freaking me out. My girlfriend is a supervisor and, for those who don’t know, technically my boss. She is possibly being moved to another location which means I may have to go with her. We only have one car. It isn’t so far we have to move or anything, just a longer commute is all. We don’t have the money to get another one now and I still have practiced driving enough to have get my licence (fun fact about me: I have a fear of driving and never got my licence, I’m working on it though, kinda).
So now I am a little stressed about the change but also pretty excited. I may even decide to stop doing the extra work and just do regular hours and focus more of my time on my hobbies. It will be a big change from what I have been doing for years but I can’t help imagining how much more free tie I might have to e alone and work. With my girlfriend being staff and making more money I can cut back a little and she supports me. I haven’t decided yet, I’m waiting for the official announcement of what my girlfriend is going to do this Friday.
If we were having coffee I would tell you that I have some sad news. I am going to have to give up my two kittens soon. They are fighting with my older cat pretty bad anymore and no one is happy. I figure if I give them up now, just shy of a year old, they will have a better chance of finding a good home, hopefully together. I always knew that we might have to give them up so I am not super attached but I took responsibility for them and I feel like I failed to make this work.
I will miss them though. My and my girl don’t have kids and the house can get big and quiet with just the two of us here. We have our older cat but she is old and not much fun anymore, she has become a strictly snuggling cat now and she takes that job very seriously. We hoped the kittens, named Calvin and Quinn, would bring some life into the house but they have brought too much. Now we are thinking we needed a dog instead. A dog can be trained and even contained when needed, cats cannot. So the kittens will go and we will wait awhile and try again with another kind of pet.
If we were having coffee I would say that I can’t believe it is already March, chapter 3 of 12. After this month we’ll be a fourth of the way through the year already. For Denver March is the snowiest month so I am definitely not looking forward to that but the snow tends to be the slushy kind that melts quick. After that spring will be on its way. There isn’t much big I have going on this month. There are no birthday’s or major holidays to celebrate so everything I am doing is in preparation for April, which will be a VERY big month, more on that later.
This past February was a good one here at Zen and Pi. I topped my previous record for amount of likes in one day, got over 1,000 total likes, and hit the one year anniversary of my WordPress registration. I didn’t actually publish my first post here until almost a month later on March 22. I tried a few new things last month. I made some changes to the look here with a new theme and worked on the sidebar with some widgets and even a photo. I did tried my hand at some poetry during The Daily Post’s Writing 201 course, which I wasn’t able to finish with the other participant but will try to finish up on my own this week.
All in all I have enjoyed blogging very much over the past year and have learned so much. I look forward to the upcoming year and expect to learn and grow even more.
If we were having coffee I would say I had better go, I was lazy yesterday and didn’t do anything I was supposed to so now I am playing catch up. Story of my life isn’t it. Also we are (hopefully) finally doing “family day” again today so I have to go get ready for that.. I haven’t seen my family in awhile so I am a little excited. We have a lot of fun when we get together and that’s when we do all of our catching up. These past few weeks my niece was sick or the weather was bad and I feel like I am missing out on everything everyone is doing. And I tend to start feeling a little isolated if I don’t see them for awhile.
I hope you all enjoy the rest of your day. Squeeze as much weekend out of the next 12 hours or so as you can, it’s going to be Monday again before we know it. Bleck!