It’s Monday again and I am in desperate need of some motivation! The weather here is gloomy and I haven’t been at work since last Wednesday so I am feeling pretty out of it. To be honest I am kinda grouchy and negative, bordering on angry. I probably just need some food, or a nap.
This week I am going to do my very best to not let my day job consume my whole life. These past few weeks have been so stressful and I have had no time to do the things I enjoy, like reading and blogging, and the lack of “me time” has had quite an impact on my mood and motivation.
I have realized that part of my sense of self-worth is tied up in my ability to be creative and make things, even if it’s just a blog post. I let everything go and now I feel low and disappointed in myself. I have let both myself and my readers down and I haven’t taken any steps toward my goals. Not one step in two weeks.
This week I have to make time to do balance work and writing better. I have to let people know, particularly my bosses, that I am not working for free and that I do not get paid to worry and stress and much as they want me to worry and stress. From now on I just do my job and my job only so that I can have some kind of time left over for myself.
I can’t promise that I will be back to my old writing schedule but I can promise you I will be here and writing more than I have in the last few weeks. I have missed this time and I have missed expressing myself and my ideas and I have missed all of you. I want to feel good again, I want to feel like I am doing something good again!