Hello and welcome to the work week! I know the weekend wasn’t long enough and you aren’t ready to leave your bed but it’s time to get shit done.
This week I am doing my best to stay positive. I have been so sick lately, and tired, and in a seriously pissy mood, I have to stop it. I have to remember that I have so much to be grateful for. I have a job, I have a wonderful girlfriend, and I have good friends. I have so many reasons to be happy. The reason I am finding to be upset are really minor things, first world problems.
Not only that but I can change the things I am unhappy about. Instead of being unhappy about this or that, I should either change it or change the way I think about it. I used to be better at that but lately I have fallen into the bad habit of complaining and doing nothing when I get frustrated about my situation. I can do better.
This week I am continuing my goal to quit smoking. I admit it has been hard and I have messed up a few times but I keep trying everyday. I have realized my biggest problem is fear. I know it sounds strange but I am afraid of being a nonsmoker. I never learned to deal with boredom and negative feelings without resorting to nicotine.
I have been a smoker since I was 16 or 18 years old, My entire adult life. How can I be sad or angry with smoking? How do normal people cope? I guess I had better figure that out if I want to really quit smoking. If I don’t I am going to fail.
This week I am also going to remember that I am not stuck. I am not stuck at this job. I am not stuck in this life. I am not stuck with any of the things I don’t like. With enough time and determination I can change anything.
I have to focus and keep moving in the directions that feel right. I have to learn to move on from mistakes and try again. I have to have the courage to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
You are not stuck, you only need to move and you can change your whole world.