Good morning everyone. It’s a rainy Monday here and while I am enjoying a break from the sweltering heat I can’t help wishing I was still in bed, warm, and cozy, and sleeping. But the bills need paying and this girl needs retail therapy so off to work I must go, and I am guessing off to work you must go to. I’m sorry.
This week, to help me get through, I am going to find, and enjoy, some silence.
“Silence, I discover, is something you can actually hear.”
I am not usually a fan of silence. I’m one of those people who gets uncomfortable without some kind of background noise or chatter. I don’t know why I’m like that, I guess I need something to drown out the loud thoughts in my head.
I want to learn to enjoy the quiet though. It’s part of my whole Zen thing, I want to learn to hear myself before other people and I want to learn to be okay with the other me inside my head. The one who thinks the thoughts that seem to come from nowhere.
This week I also want to unburden myself from the obligation of social interactions. I don’t know why but I’ve been a bit grouch lately and I’ve had a bad habit of taking it out on my friends and coworkers. I snap and them and I suck the fun out of all of their jokes.
I sound like a bitch but I really don’t mean to be like this. It isn’t them at all, it’s me. Usually I enjoy my time with them but now I need to take some time for myself. I need some silent time to feel however I want and not have to hide anything. Maybe afterwards I can come back and be my usual happy self again.
If you feel like me, maybe a little tired and emotionally drained, then maybe you need a little silence too. And if you, like me, find the silence to be a little unnerving, don’t, because you should enjoy the company of yourself just as much, if not more, than the company of others.
I have never found a companion that was so companionable as solitude. We are for the most part more lonely when we go abroad among men than when we stay in our chambers. A man thinking or working is always alone, let him be where he will.