For the cool boys in school who made fun of me for being poor. Who told me they thought I was pretty in private but treated me badly in front of others, do you regret it? Do you lay awake at night and wish you had shown that little quiet girl in school a little more compassion?
To all the teachers who labeled me a bad kid and kicked me out or shuffled me around, do you regret it? You never saw the potential in me and you never made an effort to help. You thought I was going no where and wanted to wash your hands of me. Do you see me in the faces of your other students now and give them a little more attention and patience so you don’t make the same mistake twice?
What about you, the first girl to break my heart? The girl who told me she wanted me but kissed other boys behind my back. The girl who had her friends tell me she didn’t want to speak to me anymore. Do you regret it? Does your shame in the way you acted keep you honest?
To the roommate who disappeared and left me hanging with all the bills. You don’t know this but I struggled for a year to get my finances right after you left. Do you regret it? Do you miss any of your stuff I threw out because you were too much of a coward to come get any of it? Or did you try and were surprised to find if changed the locks? I hope you are more responsible now.
To all the bosses I’ve had over the years, yes all of you, who never understand how hard life can be when you make close to nothing. Who aren’t understanding about transportation issues or the fact that even though you don’t offer me health insurance doesn’t mean I don’t get sick. Are you still so uncaring? Do you still see your employees as nothing more than bodies to work to exhaustion and replace when they can no longer keep up with your demands?
And finally to you, my reader, is there anyone that you might have treated badly in the past? Have you forgotten to see your fellow man as people who have the same emotions, dreams, and needs as you? Do you regret it? Do you wish you had acted differently? Has this regret changed you?
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