Thankful for Time

Hello and happy Monday to you all! I’m having a rough one thanks to freezing temperatures, all the snow we got over the weekend, and my inability to cope with returning to work after five days off. I really, really want to run back home and crawl back into my warm bed. But that is not an option and so I have to make the best of the day. I have to take advantage of the new start to make changes and move closer to my goals.

All month I have been working, week by week, on incorporating the principles of Thanksgiving into my life. I know the holiday is over but I couldn’t move on to the Christmas season without being thankful for one more thing. I had to acknowledge my gratitude for the passage of time.

Time is both a curse and a blessing for us humans. Time only moves forward so we get no do-overs. We can’t go back to make better choices, right our wrongs, or see the people we’ve lost once. Time hurts us all. It ticks on and on and moves us further toward the inevitable end. Time is harsh, uncaring, and it never stops or slows for any of us.

Worst of all, it slips by us unnoticed, and its gone before we learn to appreciate it.

Then again, time does heal all wounds, or at least makes them easier to bear. Time forces us to appreciate what we once had. Time teaches us lessons. Time makes us all wiser as we age and learn from those things we can’t undo. Time changes us and if we are aware of it we can change into someone we can love and be proud of.

“I may not be where I want to be but I’m thankful for not being where I used to be.”

Habeeb Akande

I think of where I came from and how far I’ve come from that and I am amazed with myself. Whenever I think something is impossible I remember how much I’ve already done and I realize I can do so much. I think of where I could’ve ended up and I make sure to be aware of what time I have and what I do with it.

I do not doubt that if I had made any other choices I would either be in jail, or dead.

There was a time when I was all messed up. I didn’t know which way to go and I carried a deep sadness with me wherever I went.  Time passed me by and I did nothing at all good with my life. I am paying for those poor choices now. I will never get a do over but I have learned to appreciate my time more.

I have learned that the time we have to enjoy life and make the most of it is fleeting. I never went to prom. I didn’t get to go to parties with my friends or join fun after school clubs. I didn’t get to go to college. I spent a lot of time drinking and drugging and hanging around people who I meant nothing to. I didn’t get to ease into adulthood and will forever feel like I have fallen behind my peers. I’m 30 years old now and I still feel like I’m catching up.

Time changed me and changed my environment. Time made everything better, but now I have less of it left. Time is not on my side so I have to maximize what I have. I have to do better every day. I have to be mindful of every moment and not let one more minute pass me by. Time is a vessel and I only want to fill it with things that feel good and get me where I want to be.

If you are aware of time and it’s movement you can see the beauty in it. You can appreciate the way life flows and moves. You can feel happier knowing that whatever your current circumstances are, time will change them. Things will get better, and then worse, but always better again. Time brings good and bad and it’s all beautiful. Time is precious.

Take time to love. Take time to learn. Take time to see, hear, taste, and touch all that you can. Take your time, make the most of your time, but do not take it for granted. You do not have as much as you think you do.

“Be grateful for who you are and what you will be.”

Lailah Gifty Akita

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Featured image: Leaves of Gold by Ashtyn Warner

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Hello! My name is Lisa. I find the human condition fascinating and I often write stuff about that. I blog at zenandpi.com but you can also find me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram, and if you like what I do, consider signing up for my newsletter. Thanks :)

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