If We Were Having Coffee // Increased Anxiety and Some Simple Pleasures

Hello, dear reader and thanks for seeing me today for a cup of strong hot coffee. I haven’t had a cup all week. I’ve switched to coffee on Sundays only—I have matcha the rest of the week—which makes it something rare and special and all the more delicious.

If we were having coffee I would tell you that we are looking at scattered showers today so it might be best to stay indoors. If you don’t mind I might be doing a bit of housework too. I slept in much later than I meant to and we are seeing family in a couple of hours so laundry and house cleaning will be rushed. I hate having to rush.

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that this past week, and the one before it, to be honest, I felt exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping well at all. There are many reasons for that but the biggest is that I think I am having real anxiety problems. I will start to go to sleep and my mind decided that is a good time to start worrying about what I am going to do is someone close to me dies or if my girlfriend ever decides to leave me. It’s frustrating and exhausting.

Right now it isn’t too bad. I actually just moved the room around a bit and made things more comfortable and that helped me sleep better, but it still happened a few times. But because it isn’t every night I think a dose a melatonin might do the trick for now. I am worried this may keep getting worse, though, and I’ll be forced to seek medical attention for it.

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that I have been counting down the days and it’s less than two weeks now until summer vacation! I did like the kids I had had this year but man, they really tried my patience. Middle schoolers are hard to work with day in and day out. They are funny and I like that they are in between being teenagers that don’t care about you and little kids who cry about everything.

They are also highly defiant and very inappropriate. They repeat everything they see in shows and online, things their parents think they are old enough to see but they aren’t old enough to understand. This year my kids watched Vine videos all day and acted out what they saw. It can be strange to be discussing Disney movies one minute and trying to stop them all from singing the “Sausage Song” the next. Ughhhhh.

I’ll miss these kids but I’ll be glad to be doing something else for awhile.

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that normally Sundays aren’t at all my favorite day of the week, but that has changed. Sunday night are Game of Thrones nights and I am loving the new season so far. I don’t want to give too much away but I really believe that this is the kind of show where everything that happens matters. There are no filler scenes or episodes. You have to always be paying attention.

I have theories about what is coming and I am anxious to find out whether I am right or not. I also fear that characters I care about will die, or that more atrocities will be committed. This show keeps you in a very stressful state all the time but in a good way.

 

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that I have been back on track with my reading goals since the A to Z Challenge is over. I finished Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut shortly after and have since read The Stranger by Albert Camus and am most of the way through The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger. I loved Slaughterhouse-Five, not so much The Stranger or Catcher in the Rye. I know they are both classics but that doesn’t mean they are for everyone.

I am not sure what I want to read next. I am torn between reading something I already own but haven’t finished, like Catch-22 by Joseph Heller, or going book shopping. Obviously, the mature adult decision is to read what I have but we all know book shopping is the best thing ever!

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that this past week was all about simple pleasures. I’ve started winding down 30 minutes before bed with a shower, a cup of tea, and a  book. My girlfriend started learning Spanish too and we’ve begun practicing together. A coworker and friend made a bean pie the was amazing! And Whole Foods has 6 macaroons for $10 and I can’t get enough.

It’s these little things, and more besides, that are making life wonderful. Every day I wonder what little thing I might find and love in the next 24 hours and that makes even the most mundane days an adventure. I look forward to seeing what happens next week.

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If we were having coffee I would tell you that this has been grand but I really have to get going. I wish we had more time but the house is a mess, I need to clean myself up, and I have more writing to do. I hope you had a wonderful week. I hope this coming week will be even better.

If you have a moment drop a note in the comments, please? I’d love to hear what you’ve been up to.

Hasta la próxima :)

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Hello! My name is Lisa. I find the human condition fascinating and I often write stuff about that. I blog at zenandpi.com but you can also find me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram, and if you like what I do, consider signing up for my newsletter. Thanks :)

2 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee // Increased Anxiety and Some Simple Pleasures”

  1. It’s cold and a touch dreary here in Australia, but the sun has decided to come out and play. We even hung laundry on the line instead inside. It did occur to me, though, that it’s been nearly ten years since I’ve had a clothes dryer, and I don’t miss it as much as I thought I would.I miss my birthday being a summer birthday instead of the winter birthday it is now more.

    I like these posts. :) The idea of a casual catch up with no strings and no appointments.

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  2. I am so with you regarding increased anxiety and difficulty sleeping. When I wake up panicked because I think I am forgetting something I know my stress levels are too high. May we both make time for peace and simple pleasures in the week to come.

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