If We Were Having Coffee // A Self-Esteem Boost and a Very Special Birthday Celebration

Hello dear readers, thank you for stopping by for some strong coffee and a friendly chat. It’s been a long week since we last spoke and I can’t wait to catch you up. If you don’t mind, I think we might have some iced coffee today. The weather is expected to be warm, and I’d like to get ahead of it with a cool drink. Next week we may have some cold brew if I can manage to make some.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that my new work schedule is amazing. When school was in my hours were 6:30 AM to 9:20 AM and 1:30 PM to 4:40 PM. The biggest drawback to my job is that damn split schedule. It makes it hard to do much in your off time. Now my schedule is 7:00 AM to 2:00 PM, straight thru. These hours are so much better! It means I get to sleep in a little bit, and I get off of work in enough time to enjoy a bit of the day. I also have way more flexibility in days I can take off, which means a weekend trip is coming up very soon :)

The workload is easier too. I make my own schedule, and as long as I am doing some work every day my boss tends to leave me alone. There will be some weeks where I will be busier, and the hours will be longer but for now, it’s easy-peasy.

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If we were having coffee, I would ask you if you remember last week I mentioned a bit of good news that I couldn’t share with you then but promised to share with you now? Welp, the news was, I won my very first writing contest!

I still can’t believe I won. I honestly thought I did a shit job and that no one would like it at all. The Friday before the announced the winner I was mentally preparing myself for the letdown. I told myself that it didn’t even matter and that I would just forget the whole thing. I wasn’t even going to check in to see who did win. I was going to forget I ever even tried. And then I got an email saying I won. It was surreal.

Because of that win, I am experiencing a self-esteem high, and I figure I should take advantage of that before the critic in me start reminding me that I have no talent and have no idea what I am doing. So, I have been working every day since on my zine ideas, I am carrying around notecards to start working on a novel, and I put together a newsletter where I can share my thoughts, my process, and bits and pieces of things that inspire and motivate me.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that right now, life is good but a bit overwhelming too. My lady and I are swinging wildly between being happy and content with our lives and feeling stressed and worried by all that needs to be done and fixed. The house is the biggest source of stress, followed closely by our need for a new/second car.

When we bought this house some four or five years ago, it needed a lot of work. We thought we could handle it, but we had bitten off more than we could chew. We got overwhelmed and instead of trying harder we did what we always do, we ignored most of it. That is until this past spring when I may or may not have had a mini mental breakdown. We decided we need a plan. We need to focus on one step at a time and not on the big huge overwhelming picture.

The car thing will be taken care of soon. We are saving but for those of you who don’t know I have a huge fear of driving and the idea of having my own car is filling me with anxiety. More on that at a later time. For now, it just sucks we can’t make any other big purchases (for home improvement purposes) until we get a car. And we can’t get a car for a few months more. Sigh…being an adult is the worst.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I have to cut our visit short this weekend. Tomorrow marks my grandmother’s (my father’s mother) 70th birthday, and we are planning a big family celebration today. I don’t see or speak to my grandmother as often as I should, I don’t think anyone every does, but she is very important to me. Because of her, my mother was able to keep me instead of giving me up for adoption because her own parents had kicked her out, and I have always been her favorite.

I am her first born grandchild, and she has always said: “first come, first served.” She is the one who taught me what unconditional love meant. No matter how much I messed up, or what life choices I have made, she has always treated me the same. I love her, and I can’t wait to celebrate her life with her today.

 

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I hope you are having a fabulous weekend and that your upcoming week will be productive and worry free. If you have a moment be sure to drop by the comments and let me know what you’ve been up to, and if you wrote a chatty coffee post of your own make sure to leave a link and I’ll stop by the next free moment I have.

Until next time :)

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Featured image via T.Tseng

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Hello! My name is Lisa. I find the human condition fascinating and I often write stuff about that. I blog at zenandpi.com but you can also find me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram, and if you like what I do, consider signing up for my newsletter. Thanks :)

17 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee // A Self-Esteem Boost and a Very Special Birthday Celebration”

  1. Congratulations on winning the contest! Cool about having an almost normal schedule. Working hours does change our attitudes towards life. Happy birthday to your grandmother! She sounds like a very special lady.

    Have a great week!

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    1. Thank you very much! Yes these work hours make me feel like a normal functioning part of greater society. I feel like a regular person and it’s wonderful :)

      Hope you have a great week too!

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  2. Congratulations on your win. Goodluck on the house and car. They will work them self out. Your new hours some so much better than working a split shift. Give your grandmother almy best wishes for happy birthday. She did a lot for you.

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  3. Congratulations on the contest! Yay you! I’m glad your work schedule is easier while school is out. I’m sure that having that extra bit of time in the afternoon will make a big difference!

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  4. Good to see you are happy. Wish your grand mother happy birthday. Take a gand Car and take good care of it.this week i was not happy. Because I realized that I am a fool.anyhow I wish you
    All the best.

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