If We Were Having Coffee // I Think I’m Really Going to Write a Book

Hello dear readers, and happy Sunday to you all. Thank you for stopping by for a bit of strong brew and some conversation and catching up. If it’s ok with you, we’ll be having some cold brew I managed to make myself. Be careful! It’s very strong. It took me three days of jitters and an upset stomach to get the coffee/water/milk proportions right. Less coffee more water and milk, trust me.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I woke to the terrible news of a mass shooting in an Orlando gay nightclub last night, and I am filled with so many emotions about it. Of course, I am saddened by the news; I always am when these things happen. I am also angry. I am angry it keeps happening and that while I can say for sure whether stricter gun laws will help, I know that we keep doing the same thing, and we keep getting the same results. We need to try something else.

In addition to sadness and anger, I feel afraid. That gay nightclub could have been any club in America, and those shot could have been me, my girlfriend, or my friends. It’s National Gay Pride month. I had plans of partying in a few clubs myself this coming weekend, but now I’m not so sure. I guess I always knew this could happen. A lot of people hate what they don’t understand. I just never thought it would happen on a scale like that. What do we do now?

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If we were having coffee, I would probably sigh and move on to happier topics. There can be no answers today.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that summer is in full swing here, and that means days in a row of 90 degrees and above. I love summertime but the intense heat in the middle of the day is hard to deal with. I find myself feeling irritable and tired. I sleep and wake up feeling shaky and a bit out of it. The heat saps my energy, and I can’t manage to do much of anything I planned.

We hoped to be able to get our evaporative cooler replaced this year, but we have other more important purchases we have to save for. We bought a portable evaporative cooler, but it isn’t as effective. I am hoping if we make it through this summer we can look into central air conditioning next year.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that this past week wasn’t a particularly eventful one. My work schedule was disrupted somewhat because a couple of my training certifications were about to expire. I spent Thursday and Friday completely bored taking a CPR and First Aid Class and a Nonviolent Crisis Intervention Course.

CPR and First Aid is important; I know that. I work with children with special needs on a moving vehicle. I need to know that to do in case I have a medical emergency. I don’t mind the learning part of the course. I hate the demonstrating part, though. Everyone watches you when it is your turn to test. You have to perform CPR on a mannequin and demonstrate the use of an AED on him too. I get flustered and worry I’ll be the first one ever to fail.

Nonviolent Crisis Intervention is hard because of my anxiety. There is a physical part of the class where we are required to stand in each other’s personal space and maintain eye contact which makes me VERY uncomfortable. There is another portion where we have to demonstrate how to block kicks and punches, get out of certain holds, and subdue another person in the safest ways possible, and we demonstrate on each other.

The worst part of that is every time I take the class the instructor uses me to demonstrate the moves because I am small, and we are learning how to use these techniques on children. It’s so embarrassing.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I am glad to at least have those two classes done and out of the way. I won’t have to deal with any of it again for another two years.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I did manage to have some fun this week. I got the opportunity to see The Conjuring 2 the night before it came out, and for free! I love horror movies, and I loved the first one, so I was very excited to see the second installment. Not only was the movie super scary but there was a live Q and A broadcast after the film with the director, James Wan, and actresses Vera Farmiga (who both my girlfriend nd I have a bit of a crush on) and Madison Wolfe. It was a lot of fun!

Tonight I’ll be at the movies again to see one of my all time favorite girly films on the big screen, Cruel Intentions. Just thinking about the film makes me tear up. If you haven’t seen it before I recommend it but keep in mind it came out in the late 90s. Oh, and keep a box of tissues close by.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I started thinking about what kind of book I want to write this past week. That isn’t quite right; I have always known what kind of book I want to write, but I’ve decided that instead of trying for a graphic novel, I am going to write a plain old regular novel instead. Trying to find artists to do what I envision is too much work and doing the artwork myself just isn’t an option now. So I am exploring the idea of using only words, and the more I think about it, the more I like it.

Ao this week I wrote down some of the big elements I want to include and get an idea of what I shouldn’t do.

See, I have about a million things I want to put into this book. I say book but it will probably be a series. I want to write an epic journey type of thing, think Lord of the Rings, with dystopian/post-apocalyptic elements, think 1984, The Giver, and a little Mad Max, plus some Sci-Fi awesomeness and a whole bunch of emotions and lessons on family, societal norms, and government. Whew! It’s a lot, probably too much, but I’m sure I’ll narrow it down further.

I have a few characters in mind (read: a lot of characters) and I am daydreaming of all the conflict I plan to put them through. I am already sad for the ones who won’t make it to the end. Maybe soon I can start jotting down a few scenes or even get an outline or timeline started. Exciting stuff is happening!

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that so many things are starting to feel real and possible. After writing my piece, It’s Never Too Late, for the Writing Cooperative I received a ton of responses from people who are much older than me telling me that I still had plenty of time and that they too were just starting to follow their dreams.

Through participating in the Writer’s Quote Wednesday event, I have learned a lot about other authors and how they wrote and why. The biggest surprise was that so many of them took years or even decades to write their books. I’m not in any hurry. When you can spend 2 or 5 years to complete a book you can relax a little. You realize the pressure isn’t there and you can learn the craft and take the time to do a good job, or the best job you can anyway.

Realizing I can take my time makes the possibility of finishing more real for me

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If we were having coffee, I would apologize for rambling on so much. I tend to talk a lot when I get excited. I haven’t given you an opening to get a word in at all. I’d love to hear how you are doing and what you have been up to this week. I hope you are well and your week was a good one. I hope you are excited about something too.

Take a minute and drop a note in the comments and if you wrote your own chatty post leave a link and I’ll check it out :)

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Hello! My name is Lisa. I find the human condition fascinating and I often write stuff about that. I blog at zenandpi.com but you can also find me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram, and if you like what I do, consider signing up for my newsletter. Thanks :)

4 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee // I Think I’m Really Going to Write a Book”

  1. If we were having coffee, I’d invite you over to reciprocate, and offer Turkish coffee, which I became addicted to on my recent trip there (which I was going to blog about but instead had to post about Orlando.)

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    1. I watched a video on how to make Turkish coffee a bit ago and now I am obsessed with finding a place here where I can order some. It looks delicious!

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