If We Were Having Coffee // East of Eden and Conquering My Fears

Hello, dear readers! Happy Sunday morning to you all. Thank you for stopping by for a quick cup of Joe and a quick catching up. I have a date in a couple of hours with my beautiful lady. We heading to our favorite movie theater for some brunch a screening of Breakfast at Tiffany’s—one of my favorite movies ever!—and afterward, we are visiting my father to celebrate his birthday.

But I normally ramble on so much I am sure you could use the break.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I had a pretty good week! My complaints about work last week have gotten a little better. The driver I’m working with has laid off the preaching and lecturing, although she is still a terrible driver. The student has warmed to me. She is nonverbal and typically pays those around her no mind, but every once in awhile she will hold my arm and squeeze it or take off her shoes and laugh as I put them back on her over and over again.

She did hit me once, but it wasn’t personal, just another game to her and a reminder to me not to drop my guard again.

My girlfriend isn’t having such a good time at work. Where I just ride along on my little route, she over the years has risen through promotion after promotion to become the one in charge of making all the routes. She has a team but as their manager, she handles all the big problems and the angry parents. The beginning of a school year is her busiest and most stressful time. She’s working close to 12 hours a day, and I every day worry about her a little more.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I have a pen pal! An email pen pal, or more specifically an “Awl Pal”.

The Awl is an online publication with the motto “Be Less Stupid”. They are pretty awesome, and they have a pretty awesome newsletter that “changes in theme, format, and frequency every week “. A few newsletters ago they asked subscribers to send in some info, and they would pair them off into “Awl Pals.”

I was paired up with Jeff, who I won’t tell you anything about because he is a “Google-able” person. We’ve started emailing back and forth, and it’s been fun to learn about someone who I have never met and live clear across the country.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I have finally conquered Catch-22 by Joseph Heller. It was a hard read, but that doesn’t mean it was bad. Quite the opposite, it was one of the most amazing books I have ever read. It was funny, and emotional, and confusing, and it had some important things to say about men and war. The characters really got to me too. I’ve been dreaming about them, and I am sad and frustrated by what they went through.

I started reading East of Eden by John Steinbeck this week, and I am positive it will be another one of my favorites too. From the very first page I was hooked. I love the way he writes his descriptions of the land and the references to biblical stories is very interesting. I expect I’ll finish it soon since I can’t put the damn thing down.


If we were having coffee, I would very quickly tell you that tomorrow is the big day! The day I take my first adult driving class. For those of you who might not know, I have a very strong phobia of driving and so, at 31 years old, I still don’t have a license. Unfortunately, Denver isn’t the kind of city that is easy to get around without a car, and I have to find a way to get over this fear as soon as possible.

I did a little research and because the fear of driving is not entirely irrational it is very hard to get over. Know one can tell me that I will be safe because I know that people get into accidents and even die every day in cars. But one thing I can do is get instruction from a certified instructor. My girlfriend has been trying to teach me, and although she is very good, I worry she may be forgetting something or not telling me something in a way I can fully understand. Taking a class will make me feel more at ease and more confident, hopefully.

Wish me luck!


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I have to get going now. We’ll be heading to the theater soon, and I still have laundry to do. I really hope you had a great week, and I hope your weekend has been a relaxing and rejuvenating one.

Please, drop a note in the comments and let me know how you have been. This evening, after I’ve made it back home, I’ll check up on you all.

Until next time :)

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3 Replies to “If We Were Having Coffee // East of Eden and Conquering My Fears”

  1. Good luck with your driving! I hope you do a review of East of Eden. I’ve read at least 4 and maybe 5 Steinbeck books and he is one of my very favorites, but I missed that one. Grapes of Wrath is great, if a slightly difficult read.


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