If We Were Having Coffee // I Got a Little Overwhelmed. I’m Sorry.

Hello, dear readers. Thank you for stopping by for a bit of conversation and caffeine. I want to start by saying I know I haven’t been around much this past week and I am so sorry for that. I haven’t been posting as much or replying to your wonderful comments, but I haven’t forgotten you or taken you for granted I swear. It’s just that I got a little overwhelmed and I’m one of those people that just shuts down when my stress levels get too high.

I can’t promise it will get better in the very near future but eventually it will. Eventually…

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I won’t be doing much celebrating this Halloween. I am so disappointed in myself. Halloween is my very favorite holiday and this year it just snuck up on me. I have no party to attended. I have no costume. I have no decorations in the yard. I have no pumpkins to carve or seeds to bake. I don’t even have candy to hand out to the kids tomorrow.

I did a few things. I got to see Beetlejuice at y favorite theater, and I meet some bats up close at the museum. I watched some of my favorite horror movies and am still enjoying the American Horror Story and Exorcist TV series—and Black Mirror, which is creepy in its own way. For the most part, though, I let my favorite time of year slip away unmarked and uncelebrated. I’ll have to wait a whole year to get another chance.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I know I haven’t been around much this past week. I wish I could say I was busting my ass preparing for NaNoWriMo but the truth is I was just working a lot. I had so many plans for this week but of course, after months of having very little to do at my day job, the last full week of October is when my boss would need me to work more than nine hours a day.

So I will be going into NaNoWriMo almost 100% unprepared. I have a few scenes in mind and some character outline ideas thanks to the Better Novel Project and the little bit of work I was able to do earlier in the month, but for the most part, I am going to be winging this. I will have to do some research along the way, and I plan to push through no matter what. No matter how crappy this is or how far from my vision I might stray I have to keep going.

Sigh.

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Some good did come out of this week, though. We bought a new car! We still have our old P.O.S. since it’s still working, but the new car will get through these tough Colorado winters with far fewer problems than we’ve been having.

I am still working on my driving phobia, but I feel much more confident driving the new car with all it’s safety features than our old one who doesn’t even have a working horn at the moment. I think very soon I will have my license and finally feel like a part of society. I won’t feel ashamed or embarrassed anymore. I’ll feel like a person.

I can’t wait.

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If we were having coffee, I would briefly mention the election. I would tell you I am beyond burned out. I am beyond angry with Trump supporters. I am beyond disappointed in third party voters. I am done.

I am going to drop my ballot off as soon as possible, and I’ll spend the eight or nine days trying to stay positive and hoping for the best.

I’ve already alerted my workplace that if the election goes the wrong way I may need a day to recover.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that my recent efforts to learn how to cook turned out pretty damn good. Please excuse my cocky tone and the huge grin on my face, I am just so proud of myself. The best so far has definitely been my take on this tacos al pastor recipe. It wasn’t as easy to make as I hoped and I nearly gave up and cried on the kitchen floor, but with a little help from my girlfriend—and the margaritas she made—I got through it, and we both enjoyed some very delicious tacos.

If you want to attempt it yourself, I have a few tips. One, achiote paste might be hard to find, depending on where you live, order it from Amazon. Two, making a meat and pineapple tower is really hard. Mine fell over multiple times, and I ended up just letting it cook leaning against the inside of the cast iron pot I ended up having to put it in. And three, have a margarita while you wait. It makes the hour and a half cook time a bit more bearable.

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If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I had better get going. There is laundry that needs washing and groceries that need buying. I also have a quick visit with my family to get ready for later.

I hope you are well. I hope your week was without stress and your weekend was relaxing. If you have a minute, drop by the comments and let me know what you’ve been up to.

I will do my best to be a better blogger this week.

There's nothing wrong with that.

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6 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee // I Got a Little Overwhelmed. I’m Sorry.”

  1. My vote is that you celebrate Halloween in March. Why not? No need to miss out. You can always pull together a costume with some creativity. Hang in there. Give it your best in November. You’ve been prepping all year long for it.

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  2. Congrats on the new car! I hope you have your license very soon. How exciting that will be. I absolutely hear you on the election. I can’t wait for it to be over (though I am anxious and hoping it goes the right way). You may feel unprepared but I admire you for taking on NaNoWriMo. It is a brave thing to do and I know you will rock it. Any writing that you do is better than none.

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  3. Take care Lisa and just take things at your own pace. It sounds like you’re working your way through things and making steady progress.
    Hope you have a great week.
    xx Rowena

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