Stop Acting So Small

Hello, dear readers and happy Monday! I know I know, Mondays aren’t happy. Mondays are for being tired, and grouchy, and remembering all the things you don’t like about your life. Mondays are for wanting nothing more than to crawl back into bed and escaping the world.

But, let’s try something different. From now on Mondays are the days when we get to start all over again. All the bad things that happened last week don’t matter anymore. This is our second chance, and this time, we might just get it right.

From now on Monday’s are for making the changes we want to see in ourselves.

From now on Monday’s are our new favorite days!

As for me, this Monday is yet another hectic and disappointing one. I had hoped to take the day to work on NaNoWriMo prep but my day job had other plans. This week will be another busy one, just like the last, and I will be starting NaNoWriMo off with an already packed schedule. But, around here we do our best to find solutions rather than give up, and I’ve decided that—for the first week at least—I will be doing much of my writing from my phone and on the run.

I got this!

“Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”

― Jalaluddin Rumi

I will admit, I have not prepared for this monumental undertaking nearly as much as I had wanted to. I nearly gave up at least ten times before I have even begun, but I found a way to stay positive, motivated, and energized. I have made the writing smaller and made myself bigger.

What I mean is, the writing is not going to be good, but I am a good writer for writing it.

No first draft is great, so I hear. I am going to vomit words onto the screen, and the are going to be ugly, smelly, and awful for everyone involved. Saying that does not make me a bad writer. Writing the words makes me a better writer than a whole lot of people out there who have never begun.

I am writing. I am a writer. I am writing a book and no matter how big or steaming the pile of crap I come up with, at the end of the month I will have something to be proud of.

The writing is small. The writing is nothing—for now—and I am great. I have something to say. I have a story to tell. I am a goddamned creative genius on the road to recognition and fortune! I will write the best novel history has ever seen!

Okay, maybe don’t make yourself too big. Maybe I am just a no-name blogger/aspiring writer, trying to make something out of nothing. A world where no world existed before, a hero who is everything I would hope to be, and a story that no one has ever read before. A story that makes people feel and think, and if I am any good at all, hope a little too.

Or maybe it will turn out to be a pile of crap nothing can be salvaged from and it will be the next book, the one shaped by all the lessons I learn in the next 30 days that will be the greatest novel the world has ever seen. Or maybe just a good novel that one reader really loves. Either way, I’ll be happy.

So to all of my NaNo peers, please remember how wonderful you are. Do not let the writing get the upper hand. Do not let the story tell you who you are. Do not let the words intimidate you. You are a goddamned creative genius! You are brave, you are smart, and you are writing the best pile of crap this world has ever seen!

Who’s with me?!

P.S. For those not breaking themselves to write a novel this month, this pep talk still applies. Just replace writing with anything you are trying to do. You can do it. You are smart and brave and you’re being here is a miracle. Do not let the work make you small. You are great for doing the work!

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Hello! My name is Lisa. I find the human condition fascinating and I often write stuff about that. I blog at zenandpi.com but you can also find me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram, and if you like what I do, consider signing up for my newsletter. Thanks :)

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