Hello, dear readers! Thank you for stopping by tonight for a big cup of coffee and a little bit of conversation and catching up. I’m so sorry I couldn’t meet up with you earlier, I had a few errands to run and some Christmas shopping that took a lot longer than I anticipated. It’s not very late but this time of year the sun sets early, and it feels much later than it is.
I may not be in the best spirits this evening. I’ve had a migraine off and on since last night. It’s a strange one, coming in painful waves over the top of my head. It has sapped my energy and left me grouchy and struggling to enjoy what is left of my weekend. At least the weather was nice today. I tried my best to soak it up while I could since the forecast calls for snow and temperatures well below freezing this week. Ugh.
If we were having coffee, I would definitely start by mentioning my big stressful NaNoWriMo win. Part of me is super proud of myself for getting it done, but another part of me is having a hard time believing I really did it. I mean, I wrote 50,000 words of a novel. I’ve never done anything like this before. I’m not sure what it means, or where I go from here. There is a third part of me that thinks it really didn’t mean anything at all.
What I did write was nowhere near the end of the story. So, if I want to use it, I will have to keep writing. Looking back there is a lot of it I want to change or scrap entirely. So, there will always be extensive rewrites of what I already have. Those 50,000 words felt almost impossible, but this rest, the “what now?” feels is overwhelming.
The plan, for now, is to just leave it all be and work on other things this month. Then, in January, when I’ve had time to let is stew in the back of my mind I will start fresh again. I’ll take it one step at a time and shoot for 500 words a day until I have a real first draft to work with.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that besides that, not much else is happening. I have a few projects in the works, but my main focus is to catch up on small things here.
I have seriously neglected my editorial calendar. I still need to get a logo. I have a ton of your comments piled to reply to. My About and Now pages need revamping. I’m also going I might narrow my focus a bit, or at least introduce more science and math into my routine.
You know, regular blogging stuff.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that my next big project has been on my to-do list for over a year. My zine.
While writing for NaNoWriMo, I had a breakthrough on what I wanted to write about nd how I wanted to present my ideas. I am going to mix science and math with poetry and art. Every other page will feature some of my favorite facts and concepts, and the facing page will feature a bit of creativity from me relating to the fact or concept.
I want to share with the world my love for this universe. I want to share the awe I feel when I look up at the stars when I think about how time isn’t just a human concept but a real substance that stretches and shrinks. I want to teach people about how strange and beautiful this place is. I want to reveal how much more there is to reality than these human constructs we’ve invented. I want to widen our view.
I may never do any of that for anyone, but it’s important that I try. It’s important that I show people what the world looks and feels like through my eyes, mind, and heart.
Plus, it sounds like a lot of fun to make something tangible with my hands.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that time is slipping away entirely too fast. I can hardly believe it’s already December and Christmas is right around the corner. After that, we’ll be in a whole new year!
I’m thinking a lot about this new year and trying to work out what I would like it to mean to me. So much can happen in a year. I may not know what is coming but I know there will be plenty of bad time, and I’m hoping for at least the same amount of good times too. Soon I’ll be making a list of goals and tasks to complete and working out where I would like to go from here.
I think I’ll try of a new year’s resolution—or two—too, just for fun, just to see if I can do it. I’d like to start exercising, making art every day, or traveling.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that now it is really late and I really have to get going. My headache is getting bad again, and I think I need to go to bed where there is darkness and silence. I hope by morning I feel a bit better.
I hope you are doing well. I hope your week was productive and your weekend was relaxing. If you have time, stop by the comments and let me know what you’ve been up to and how you are feeling. I love hearing from you, even if I’m not always the best at replying.
Until next time :)
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