Hello dear readers. Thank you so much for stopping by for a cup of warm coffee and what may a bit of a rambling chat. I feeling somewhat scattered today. I woke up much later than I wanted to this morning and no matter how hard I try to catch up I find myself slipping further and further behind. There is so much I had planned to do that I am sure I will have to put off again.
I have been easily distracted, my mind is restless and anxious, I’m tired, and slipping slowly into frustration.You should probably get out now while you can.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that the only things keeping me going right now are the sunshine outside my window and the knowledge that no matter what happens all I have to do is get through this week. I just have to keep on breathing and put one foot in front of the other all the way through Friday, and then I will have plenty of time to accomplish everything I had to set aside. I will have two full weeks off of work in which to read, write, and create a little art in. It is going to be amazing!
I want to work on a few submission, at least two pieces for my zine and get a jump-start on a few post for the new year. My art journal has been neglected for months now, and I really want to try to get one or two more books read before the end of the month. I almost wish I could have the time off without the holiday getting in the way.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that, speaking of reading goals, I am enjoying Natalie Goldberg’s Writing Down the Bones so, so much. She writes about writing in a way that makes me feel the way I know I should be making my readers feel. She makes me feel better about the way I feel about writing. The way I prioritize it and allow it to seep into nearly every other aspect of my life. She makes me feel like I might be doing a thing or two right after all.
I’m a little over halfway through it and next I’m supposed to read Plato’s Republic but that doesn’t sound very fun right now, so I think I will start on a stack of shorter books I have by writer’s of color for a while.
If we were having coffee, i would tell you that the highlight of my weekend was getting out for sushi and a late night movie with my girlfriend Friday night. The sushi place is a new one we found in the same parking lot as our favorite theater. That means we can have a bit of sake with dinner and not have to worry about the drive. The place in intimate and I don’t feel too intimidated by my lack of experience using chopsticks or eating something I can’t even pronounce. It’s nice to feel comfortable to try new things and make mistakes.
We saw Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, which I wish I could tell you was amazing. It wasn’t bad, but after seeing movies like Arrival, Moonlight, and Handmaiden, I was a little underwhelmed. I tried to like it for what it was, though.
I wanted to see Rouge One this coming weekend, but I stalled too long and nearly every seat is sold for every showing through Sunday night. Sigh.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that for the first time ever, starting a new year scares me. I’ve been trying to think about some goals or resolutions I would like to set, and nothing seems right. Whenever I try to picture where I want to be a year from now all I can think about is how crazy 2016 turned out to be and my brain sort of gives up. Why try to prepare or predict when nothing turns out quite like you wanted it to anyway?
I think the closest I may come to real resolutions this year is just a list of things I would like to do if I can. The list will be flexible, I’ll add things throughout the year as they occur to me, and I’ll remove the items that just won’t work.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that, lately, I have been feeling a little down about myself. My self-esteem has taken a dip, and I can’t help thinking that nothing I am doing is turning out right. I’m struggling not to stay in bed all day and hide from the world…
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I am so sorry, but I really have to get going. I have words to type, laundry to wash, and a dog begging for attention. I hope that you had a good week and a relaxing weekend. I hope the coming week will be an easy one, for both of us, and I hope you will stop by the comments to say hi and let me know what you have been up to.
Until next time :)
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