If We Were Having Coffee // All to Myself

Hello dear readers. Welcome, happy Sunday, and thank you for stopping by for a bit of caffeine and catching up. I am in desperate need of company just now. I’ve had the house all to myself since Friday and this morning, in particular, feels especially lonely. I don’t do well on my own, even the dog is depressed and want little to do with me. So, I’ve got some music playing, the drapes open wide, a strong cup cold brew, and now you, to cheer me up.



If we were having coffee, I would start by wishing all the Mother’s out there a happy and joyful Mother’s Day. I hope your children remind you how much you mean to them. We’ve all taken a parent for granted before and it’s good to recognize at least once a year (though of course, it should be more) that our mother’s, while not perfect, did the best they knew how and made us who we are, for better or for worse.

Of course, not everyone had a great experience growing up, and for a lot of people, Mother’s Day can be a little complicated. Some people had abusive, or absent mothers, some people had another person in their life who was more of a mother to them than the woman who gave birth. I have a friend who’s celebrating his Father today, the parent who did double duty. I wish all of you a happy Mother’s Day too, and I hope you, and the ones you celebrate, feel valid and recognized today.

As for my mother and me, it’s a little complicated for us too, but we’re a forgiving family. I can see how hard it was for her having me so young. I’m grateful for all her hard work. I’m grateful for her love. I’m grateful she did better by me than her parents did by her. I’m grateful that she taught us that at the very least, we should grow up to do better than her too.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’ve had the house all to myself since Friday evening and, it’s driving me crazy. Anyone who knows me knows I hate being away from my girlfriend. We’ve been together so long, lived together most of that time, and with working the same schedule, at the same place, it makes it hard when I don’t have her around. It’s probably not super healthy, I suppose, but it’s how I am, and she doesn’t mind, much.

She’s staying at a hotel this weekend and enjoying a bit gambling and good food with her mother.

I’m stayed home to celebrate my own mother with my siblings and taking care of the house. I saw them yesterday for a small, low-key get together at my brother’s house. It was a wonderful visit, my niece is growing up so fast, my sister and I cracked each other up the whole time, my mom got hilariously annoyed with us all, and my brother has two new, very cute puppies I got to play with! I was only sad my brother’s fiance wasn’t there. I wanted to congratulate her face to face after I found out I’M GOING TO BE AN AUNT AGAIN!


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that health-wise this was a weird week. I started off feeling amazing on Monday. I felt like my old self. I felt happy, even after being at work all day! Then slowly throughout the rest of the week, I slide further downhill.

Part of it was diet. I didn’t stick to the bland food plan I’d set up. Part of it was the stress of planning Mother’s Day. Part of it was simple exhaustion. I need to rest, but I feel too guilty to stay in bed or to say no when people ask me to do things.

I am hanging in there though. I only have nine more days until my first infusion, and that light at the end of the tunnel that I hope is there. I cannot wait.


If we were having coffee I would tell you that I am counting down to the end of the school year and feeling a little sad, and very anxious, about losing my kids to summer vacation and about starting new work hours.

For those who don’t know, I work on a Special Needs school bus, and this year I had great kids! Of course, I love my kids every year, but this was the first year that all my kids liked me! I had all high schoolers and nearly all boys and all year I got to talk about video games and superheroes. I was quizzed on who has what superpowers, who is who’s arch nemesis, and which heroes were faster, stronger, and smarter than which heroes. We made up gross foods combinations to eat and imagined how to escape dangerous scenarios like sharknados and rabid beavers. We talked about space travel, dinosaurs, sports teams, and horror movies. I had a lot of fun!

I’m going to miss them, but maybe I’ll get to see them again next year.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you I’m still plugging away, writing blog posts and working on some bigger projects but there were setbacks. My writing got away from me. That is, I let a few tangents get the better of my focus and by the end what I started to say looked like nothing I meant to say by the end, and I spent the rest of my week trying to correct course. This week I’m starting again, and I’m going to work on being more organized.


If we were having coffee, I would tell you that the clouds are rolling in and I can feel the weather changing in my bones. I have a lot left to do today to prepare for the week, and I had better get to it before this energy leaves me. I’m joining in on some interviews at work, so I have to prepare a question, and I’d like to post something here tomorrow, not to mention the laundry, the dishes, and a slew of small house projects that need completing before the work week can begin.

I hope you made progress where progress was needed this week, and if you didn’t, I hope your setbacks can be overcome in the coming one. I wish you all a happy Mother’s Day full of love and gratitude.

Until next time.


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Written for the #WeekendCoffeeShare link-up hosted by Eclectic Alli

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One Reply to “If We Were Having Coffee // All to Myself”

  1. Hi Lisa,

    I’m very new to this coffee club and you can find my first (relaxing) offering near yours under the link titled GWilson ….

    I did a quick review of your blog site, and in the interest of full disclosure, you and I could hardly be more different – except where you point out that you are from a forgiving family and that you are clearly a well intended person deep down to your core. I do grace in the Christian sense of things and that means that my friends do not need to meet my standards for anything to deserve my friendship. I do have little use for dishonesty, cruelty or blatant evil intents. But that doesn’t sound like you at all.

    I had a great childhood with parents who daily sacrificed to make sure my sisters and I had healthy lives. Their model became such a major theme for how my wife and I have raised our kids.

    I like a lot of people who are not like me. I often find things to learn from them and perhaps you and I could be similar friends. I am 63, so have done some living and have both some wisdom and scars to prove it.

    I offer a chance to lighten up your day. You sounded kinda down, and I think I can make you laugh.

    My current writing project is to collect short (>2000 word) autobiographical and funny stories from growing up about an hour north of San Francisco. While I’m looking for good clean laughs, I really want to get good at leaving my readers with vivid mental images of each event. I want them to enjoy and recall each event as if they were there with me. So I take the first person voice and treat each account as if my reader is sitting there with me and I’m revving them up for a good laugh.

    I invite you to review a few of my stories. Each one is designed for most readers to be in and out within 10 minutes – so no War and Peace missives will be found in my collection. If interested or even still struggling with being alone for the weekend, I would be honored if you stopped by; https://garyawilsonstories.wordpress.com/ , tried out a few stories and let me know if I delivered the promised laugh.

    From most laughs, good friendships can be built.
    I recommend the Giant Inner Tube and Buckeye stories to start with.

    Regardless, I look forward to hearing how life is treating you and perhaps the chance to trade ideas.
    Warmest regards,


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