My Blogging Heroes

One of the hardest parts of blogging is knowing there are so many bloggers out there who are doing it so much better than you and still sitting down to type out post after post anyway. I’ve read a ton of writing and blogging advice over the past year and while it all seems so simple, in practice it is very difficult.

Lately I have stopped taking in all the “how-to’s” and started actively looking at what other people are doing. I do my best to look at what types of things they are writing about. I look at how often they are posting and whether or not they are replying to their comments. I even look at where they are choosing to host their blog and what elements they are including in their design.

To be honest I have learned more in the last few months of just observing then I ever did reading the “how-to’s”. I’m now rethinking the way I blog and soon I plan to start moving in a bit of a different direction. For now though, I’m going to keep on observing for a while and I encourage you to do the same.

To start you off, here are a few of my blogging heroes:

1. Austin Kleon – A Writer Who Draws

If you’ve been following me for a while you know I am a big fan of Kleon’s work. After reading his books Steal Like an Artist and it’s sequel, Show Your Work, I knew more than anything I wanted to live a more creative life and try to make a living while doing it too.

Kleon’s blog is not only informative, but interesting and inspirational, as well. He pulls quotes and artwork from other creative types to show you (not just tell you) how to be the best artist and/or writer you can be.

He’s also really good at Twitter and his Tumblr is a “scrapbook of stuff he’s reading, looking at, listening to, thinking about”. He also has one of the only newsletter’s I’ve subscribed too and actually look forward to reading every week.

2. Maria Popova – Brain Pickings

I love, love, love the blog Brain Pickings so much. Every post is beautifully written and includes pictures and quotes to support her words. You can tell she really cares about what she is saying and that she takes her time with each one.

Her blog spans many subject including art, writing, science, philosophy, history, and so much more. She combines bits and pieces of information and insight to teach us something new about life and the human condition.

Her work makes you feel a little smarter and a little more enlightened with every post. And the most amazing part is, she does it all on her own, with no ads, just support from her very grateful readers.

Bonus: Check out her SoundCloud account for interesting audio clips that she often includes in her blog posts.

3. Crystal Moody – Year of Creative Habits

The Year of Creative Habits was one of the first blogs I followed after starting my own blog. I knew I wanted to write but I also wanted to start making some art too. I followed along on her journey and even attempted to make a little art myself everyday. I ultimately failed but I haven’t given up, in fact, I plan to try again very soon.

I like Moody’s blog because she doesn’t just talk about what I should do, she shows me by actually doing it herself. I envy her dedication to learning new ways to be creative and I admire her ability to buckle down and do it everyday no matter what.

Like Kleon, she also has a weekly newsletter that I enjoy reading. It includes links to things she likes as well as pictures of her own work.

There are a ton of other bloggers out there I admire but these three really make me think about how I can not only blog better, but also how my blog could benefit other people. I am continuously inspired by their talent and grateful for their hard work and dedication to helping people like me.

I hope one day my blog can make people feel that way too.
NaBloPoMo July 2015
In response to July NaBloPoMo prompt: If you could have lunch with any blogger, who would it be?

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Zen and Pi: The Hits According to You

Good bloggers check their stats regularly and adjust scheduling and post types accordingly, at least that is what I have been told. I must confess, I am not one of those good bloggers. I check my stats here and there but only because I like the watch the “views” and “likes” count go up. They go up quite slowly but they do go up and it is exciting.

I never thought much about what posts my readers may have liked the best or connected with the most because, for one, I wouldn’t adjust my blogging habits much, and two, even my most viewed, liked, and commented posts have some pretty depressing numbers. Why would I put myself through that?

But today I did just that. I looked at the past year and a half or so of posting and pulled together a little list of what has attracted the most people my little corner of the internet. What I found out surprised me a little.

Views:

Besides my About page, which has more views than any other post or page on this blog, my most viewed post is a confessional one. I wrote about the fact that I have never learned to drive because I was too afraid. I’m not sure why this post has been viewed so much but my guess is because I tagged it under “fear”.

A lot of people are afraid of a lot of things and I think we are all looking for help with that. I wonder if people search for information of fears and come across the title I’m 29 Years Old and I Never Learned to Drive and want to know how that happens. Either that or there are others who like me never learned to drive. If so I wish they’d comment more and let me know.

My other most viewed post is a sort of review I did of the new Cinderella movie titled Have Courage and Be Kind. The movie had just been released, plus I tagged it under “Monday Motivation”, which always gets me more views. Mondays are always a good blogging day.

Likes:

The post that has the most likes, again, besides my About page, is my theme reveal for the Blogging A to Z Challenge back in April. My theme was Astronomy A to Z and while I didn’t finish it (I will eventually I promise!) most of my posts did very well.

I mainly chalk it up to this being such a big event and I did tag my post well. Every one involved was encouraged to visit other blogs and many stopped by mine while making the rounds. I think everyone is intrigued by the cosmos and many people decided to give me a like and a follow to learn more.

My second most liked is one I am pretty proud of. It’s a poem I wrote in response to The Daily Post’s Writing 201: Poetry course.  The word prompt was water and the form was Haiku. I really took my time and came up with one this which I call, Be Water:

I wake up like ice
Then struggle to find my flow
Be water, not steam!

Again, it was an event and I tagged well but I also think most writers like poetry and people seemed to think I did a good job. I think I did too.

Comments:

The post with the most comments goes to my first post in the aforementioned Blogging a to Z Challenge, A is for Astronomy. Just like the theme reveal I think it was mainly due to it being such a big even and because it was the first day there was a ton of excitement and people rushing to visit as many blogs as possible.

I also think a lot of people just found the theme interesting.

Interestingly, I found an option in the stats that show you what your best day for comments was mine was April 2nd of this year. That day I posted twice. I did my second day of the Blogging A to Z Challenge, B is for Big Bang, and another poem, a pantoum actually, called “Because You Feel Like Summer“.

I’m pretty proud of that poem too.

For me commenting shows the greatest amount of connection with a reader and I think being involved in a big blogging event and writing something heartfelt really made people want to spark up a conversation with me. I hope to do more of that in the future.

Sharing:

Another big way to gauge connection with a reader is to see what people are sharing with their own friends and readers. Not a lot of my stuff gets shared a lot without me actively sharing it first and then it getting retweeted (it’s usually on Twitter that this happens) from me.

My biggest day for shares was a Weekend Coffee Share I did back in March. That day discussed moving on from February and marked the 1 Year Anniversary of my blog. I think it was shared so much because it was part of a weekly event and it was a milestone for me. Bloggers like to congratulate each other on their milestones, especially in the beginning.

My second biggest day for shares was a post I did for the first 1000 Speak for Compassion event titled Compassion for the Less Fortunate, for the Undeserving, and for Yourself. I enjoyed writing that one even though I don’t consider it to be my best work. I felt like it was a really nice event and I was glad to be a part of it.

Bonus surprisingly popular post:

Back in the very beginning of this blog, maybe a few months in, I posted about my amazing girlfriend and her ability to cheer me up just by reminding me how much she loves me. I titled the post My Prince Charming is a Princess after an image I had found on Pinterest.

The reason I included it in this post is because while it isn’t the most popular, nor has it gotten the most comments, it is the post that is still viewed regularly well after it has disappeared down the feed. It doesn’t get many likes or comments but people find it while searching for the phrase and they do read it.

I guess there are a lot of lesbians out there looking for a way to tell people they have found their own Prince Charming, only he is not a he but a she.

I may revisit it and try again now that my skills have improved. It’s an important post and I liked being able to write something about the person I love. I think she deserves for me to write it better now that I can.

So what did I learn by doing all of this? I learned that joining blogging events helps engage others and attract them to your writing. I also learned the writing creatively and writing from the heart are important too. People want to relate to the feelings of others and they do that through reading.

They also want to know you are a real person too, and when they know you are they want to know more.

NaBloPoMo July 2015
In response to July NaBloPoMo prompt: Which post have people connected with the most on your blog?

Misunderstandings Happen All the Time, Especially in Relationships

When you are in a relationship, especially a long-term relationship, misunderstandings ca happen a lot. When both parties in the relationships come from families that do not communicate their feelings well, misunderstandings happen all the time.

I’ve been with my girlfriend, fiance actually, for almost 13 years now, we’ve lived together for 11 of those 13 years. I love her more than anything and because of that everything that happens between is more intense. Our happy times are euphoric, our sad times are devastating, and our anger is hot and impassioned.

We can move from one emotional state to another quickly and without warning. Often we find ourselves unsure of exactly we got wherever we are, especially when we fight. It’s never about something big or something easy to define. We never fight about money and jealously is a rare problem for us. Instead it seems to always be some small misunderstanding.

I think these fights can sometimes be be harder to resolve than the big ones. These fights are so often reoccurring and leave both parties feeling defensive, exhausted, and confused.

It always starts with something that has nothing to do with what the fight ends up being about. It starts because one of us is making us both late to an engagement, or maybe one of us had a bad day, or maybe both of us are stressed about work. Whatever it is it’s set of by the wrong words, a weird tone, a bad look, something that gives one of us a reason to start some shit and release the anger building in us.

We don’t do it on purpose and the thing we choose to make a big deal about is often nothing more than a misunderstanding. Nothing more than a negative perception of something the other person did or said. The other person tries to explain but it doesn’t go well. One gets too defensive, the other feels invalidated, which escalates things.

The argument twists and turns, eventually it becomes about how things are being said and not about what is being said. We move father and father away from the possibility of a resolution as the problem becomes fuzzier and fuzzier. We both say things the wrong way, we both yell and cuss. Next thing you know we can’t tell who is right or wrong or how to fix any of it.

All we know is the other hurt us and we are mad about it.

After some time to cool down we eventually get to a point where we can try again we do. We try to explain ourselves and our intentions and remind the other that this was all a misunderstanding. Sometimes it works right away, and sometimes we have to go through the cycle another time or two, but eventually we get there. We come to an understanding.

I wish I could say that it happens less and less over time but the truth is quite the opposite. More and more we misunderstand each other, more and more things are taken personally.

I really think it’s because we love each other so much. It’s because of that love that any negativity felt from the other one hurts more than from anyone else. We fight because we have to show the other how much a roll of the eyes, or a condescending tone, can cut us.

We also fight to defend our love for the other despite the eye roll and the tone. We want the other to know that while we might have gone about things the wrong way, we didn’t mean to cause such a big fuss and we cerrtainly didn’t mean to cause any harm.

We misunderstand each other all the time. Those misunderstandings lead to hurt feelings, which get expressed as anger, which is then misunderstood as an attack. But in the end, we love each other and we always work it out.

NaBloPoMo July 2015
In response to July NaBloPoMo prompt: Tell us about a time when you were deeply misunderstood. How did you fix the situation?

Yeah I Write For Me, but I Write Well For You

When I started blogging I don’t think I knew what to expect. I didn’t know much about writing. I didn’t know anything about how to connect with others through blogging. I didn’t know much about how a blog should look. I didn’t even know what I was going to write about. And I certainly didn’t know if anyone was going to care.

I just wanted to write.

I wanted to have a place to say things when I needed to say. I hoped to learn what I wanted to say and how to say it along the way. I hoped to learn and how to connect with people and how to make writing and blogging into a fulfilling part of my life too.

In the beginning, every time I posted something, I immediately regretted it. I thought it was stupid and no one would care. I regularly felt the urge to delete every post I had written, but I didn’t. I knew I had to keep going and I promised myself that no matter what, whether people liked me or hated me, I would always write for myself first.

Things have changed a bit since then. I still write for myself first but I take better care in the way I write for my readers. I figure if people take time out of their day to pay attention to me and what I am saying then at the very least I owe them the courtesy of decent spelling, grammar, and sentence structure. I should also try to keep it entertaining but that is something I am learning as I go.

I ask that my readers please be patient with me in that regard.

No one wants to read full-page paragraphs with no punctuation and misspelled words. No one want to read a post that is disorganized and has no focus. No one wants to read a bunch of “text writing” like u, ur, luv, tho, or whatever else the kids these days are doing. I know I would feel personally offended if I wasted even a few seconds of my life clicking a link that lead to crap like that.

So while I may write a bunch of stuff that only matters to me, I promise to a least keep it as legible as I can and I welcome all “grammar Nazi’s” to correct me when necessary.

This, I will do for you, dear reader.
NaBloPoMo July 2015
In response to July NaBloPoMo prompt: Do you write only for yourself, or do you use your blog to try to connect to other people?

I took the prompt in a bit of a different direction though.

Can I Get a Little Understanding?

I think about the concept of “understanding” a lot. I wonder if a person can ever truly understand another person? I wonder if anyone has ever truly understood me? And I wonder why we all have this desire to be understood at all?

One of my biggest motivations for writing is to try my best at explaining myself as plainly as possible. I want to explain everything about myself. Why I am the way I am, why I think the way I think, how the world appears to me, and what I think people ought to do. I want to explain where I have been and where I am going, and why. I want everyone to know that someone like me exists.

As much as I am driven to be understand, I am driven to understand too. I want to know people. I want to know where they come from and how they have lived. I want to know what they see and feel and I want to know what drives them forward. I want to know that other people who exist too.

So far my need to be understood, and to understand, has not been resolved. People generally misunderstand me but I think it is more my fault then theirs. I just haven’t learned to articulate my thoughts as well as I would like. Not only that but all words and phrases in any human language can have multiple meanings. We can be easily misunderstood by things that have nothing to do with the words we are using. Context, tone, body language, even the other person’s mood can affect how we are understood.

For me, it feels like something always goes wrong and my words never mean precisely what I want them to mean.

Writing helps though. People aren’t inherently good at listening, not in my experience anyway. They don’t like to hear another person talk about themselves for too long. They like to get to the part where they get to say what they want to say. But with writing I can ramble on as much as I want about whatever I want and people will read it and actually take in my words. They have to wait until I am done to respond.

It may sound a little narcissistic, but all I want is to be heard, to be known to others. With writing I find that more and more my words are doing what I want them too, and other people are understand exactly what I mean to say.

NaBloPoMo July 2015

In response to July NaBloPoMo prompt: Do people generally understand what you’re trying to say?

If We Were Having Coffee

If we were having coffee I would tell you that I am feeling so much better now! For the past few weeks I have been either sick with a nasty cold or feeling a bit down and depressed but the cold is gone and Christmas is coming!

Usually I’m not a big fan of the holidays but every year it gets better and better and this year is turning out to be the best one yet! We have a tree up and it’s a damn good looking tree! We are buying gifts for each other and this year we have more money to go around. We are also going to be spending Christmas day at home, just the two of us! It will be perfect.

If we were having coffee I would tell you that today is the last day of NaBloPoMo and I am glad it’s finally over. I wrote about it yesterday and talked about all the things I had learned. I’m going to slow down a bit now that’s it’s over but only because I want my writing to be better. I’m still going to write everyday but I want to take more time thinking and editing now.

If we were having coffee I would also tell you that because of that I have decided to join The Daily Post’s newest Blogging U. course, Writing 201. It looks like they are going to be focusing on blogging on the longform side of things, which I tend to lean towards anyway. If you want to give longform a try I encourage you to check it out.

Lastly, if we were having coffee, I would tell you that I have gone 17 days without a cigarette. I know that doesn’t sound like much but I assure you it has been very, very difficult to make it this far. Everyday it gets a little easier but I still do crave them multiple times a day, I imagine I will for a long while. I want one right now to be honest but I know i can’t have one. I have to think of my health and my girlfriend.

I have an app on my phone that gives me stats based on my quit date and time. I put my date in as November 13th, 2014 at 6:00 AM. Since then I have gone 17 days, 2 hours, 49 minutes, and some seconds without a cigarette. I have NOT smoked 171 cigarettes. I have saved $47.02. And I have saved 17 hours of my time. I’m not sure if that is time not smoking or time my life has been extended but either way it’s good.

I am proud of myself but I try not to brag too much, I feel like I am just doing what I should’ve done a long time ago. This is not the first time I have tried and I can’t help still being disappointed in myself for not being strong enough to quit sooner. I am still at risk for a lot of health problems and I hope that one day I won’t be looking back and hating myself for developing some sort of cancer or other health issue because I started smoking and couldn’t quit.

But enough about that! If we were having coffee I would apologize for talking so much, I do tend to ramble on, especially when I’m talking about myself. I’d then say it was time I heard how you were doing, so please let me know in the comments :)

P.S. Just a quick note before you go, I wanted to remind all of you that I am present on a few other networks across the web too. I have a brand new Facebook page that isn’t much right now but I would still appreciate a few likes if you could. If you’re on Tumblr you should DEFINITELY follow me there, I post a lot. And finally there is Twitter which I am finally getting the hang of and using much more than I used to. Anyway check me out or give some feedback if you have a minute. Thanks!

NaBloPoMo is (Finally) Coming to an End

Whew! NaBloPoMo is coming to an end tomorrow and as much as I enjoyed the experience, I do have to admit, I am glad it’s over. I did learn a lot though, both about writing, and surprisingly, about myself.

First thing I learned was that posting everyday is not for me. I’m not sure if that’s because I am new to writing or because I just like to take my time. I like to think the idea over in my head and write a draft or two before I post. Having a time crunch forced to me post some things that I didn’t feel were ready for the world to see. I do think a lot of that was because I am new to all of this and I wonder if I were a better writer and blogger if maybe my content would not have been better.

Writing everyday felt a bit stressful but I think if I had prepared myself more I might have had an easier time of it, even being as new as I am. I should have written down some ideas ahead of time and maybe even got some outlines done. That way I could’ve written a few posts of with a bit more substance than, say, general updates on my life.

In the past week I have written a long list of post ideas and most will be tending toward the longform side of things, 1000 to 1500 words or more. Because of that I do expect that my posting frequency will drop conciderably. I am hoping for 4 or 5 days a week for now, maybe less, but that does not mean I won’t be writing everyday, just means I will be editing more.

I’ve also learned that inpsiration really is more about where your mind is then it does about where your body is. Within the first week or two of NaBloPoMo I began to think that because my life was boring at the moment that there would be a serious shortage of ideas to writie about. Turns out that isn’t true at all. I know I said my post weren’t as great as I had hoped they would be but I was able to do it everyday. I was able to come up with SOMETHING and I think that is more than a lot of people could do.

What I learned was that just sitting down to type and playing some good music to help you focus could go a long way. Just keep typing about whatever pops into your head and eventually something worth exploring will come to that surface. If you are having a particularly hard time drink some coffee and turn the music up louder. If you stil can’t think of anything, try alcohol. I guarantee the ideas will start flowing then!

I also learned that I prefer to write either early in the morning or late at night. I also learned that I like sitting at a desk more than on the couch or in the bed. The spare bedroom in our house is the best place because there is no TV in there to distract me. And I learned how to type around people who are uncomfortable with your silence and focus and want to talk to you even though they see you are busy. I eventually learned how to get them to leave you alone too.

I learned that my girlfriend is amazing and very supportive of my writing. There were many days when i felt I just wasn’t in the mood and she pushed me and reminded me that I would hate myself in the morning if I didn’t get some kind of writing done. She listened to all my blogging ideas and complaints and never once made me feel stupid or dorky. She even told me she believes I really should be a writer! That meant the world to me.

All in all it was a good thing. In fact, in spite of the stress and difficulty I plan on doing it again next year! It really was fun and I am proud of myself for getting through it. I encourage all bloggers to give it a try. You will learn something about yourself, I promise you that!

Do or Do Not (Quit Smoking)… There is No Try!

It is late and I am up Googling whether or not I can mix ibuprofen and theraflu nighttime medicine because I am still sick and on top of that I have a nasty migraine. Ibuprophen works on my headache, theraflu works on my cold, or flu, or whatever it is.

The whole time I am doing this I think about how healthy I have been since I realized I was sick. I have been drinking plenty of fluids and getting my vitamins and eating only healthy food and still, this has gone on for over a week. Then I realize, I am a smoker, and smokers get sick more easily and stay sick much longer than non-smokers. Now I am kicking myself for not quitting sooner because now I believe that is why I am suffering so badly right now.

I can’t stop coughing. All day and all night I cough, and cough, and cough. A nasty dry cough that does nothing but further irritate my my throat and threaten to make the contents of my stomach come back up. The cough is exhausting and the most likely source of the migraine I am experiencing right now. The cough and the exhaustion and the nausea are almost more than I can handle. I almost collapsed into a pile of tears on multiple occasions today. The worst part is it doesn’t seem to be getting any better.

I haven’t had a cigarette since last Thursday, when things started to get really bad. The last one I had made my throat feel horrible and that is really when the cough started. I couldn’t smoke after that but the cough got worse. Today, just four days later, the idea of smoking sounds really disgusting. I smelled a cigarette today and wanted to puke!

The point is, maybe, just maybe, there can be a silver lining here. Maybe, just maybe, I can finally quit smoking for good! I keep thinking about the quote from Yoda saying “Do or do not… There is no try”. There is no “trying” to quit smoking, which is what I used to say in the past. There is just quitting! It’s not that I want to quit smoking, I have to quit smoking. I feel like there just is no choice now, I just can’t smoke anymore. I am going to want to and I am going to crave it bad but I just CAN’T!

So I’m doing it again, I am quitting for the final time. I am done because I want to be healthy! I am getting older and I want to LIVE. Cigarettes are just killing me slowly and I need to stop before it’s too late, if it isn”t already. If I don’t, this cough that I hate so much right now, will one day be something I deal with for the rest of my life. I do not want to live like that! So I am done.

There is no try.

Is There A Book (Or Two) In Me?

I’ve been thinking lately about writing. I’ve been thinking about what I want to do and where I am going with it. I know I am new to writing in general. I don’t really know what I am doing at all or how to do anything else, but I have been thinking for a very long time. I have always wished I could be a writer, I just never thought it was possible until recently. I thought writers had to go to collage and they came from rich families. I thought writers looked nothing like me.

You have to understand, as a teenager I had a lot of emotional issues. I was depressed and I didn’t care about much. I didn’t make it very far in high school. I dropped out in the 10th grade. I later got my GED and a job at Target and I figured that I was just going to be a nobody for the rest of my life. Without an education how could I do anything?

Throughout that whole time I journaled. I wrote many times a day and I hoped to one day turn my life into a book. I knew there were others out there like me and I wanted them to hear my story. But I was just some nobody who could barely spell or write a proper sentence so how was I going to do that? There was no way I could write a book. It was impossible!

So, eventually I stopped journalling too. I felt like it was going nowhere. But now things are different. Now anyone can write for the world and have their voices and stories heard. Hell, I’m doing it right now! There might not be a whole lot of people who are reading this but someone is. Maybe one day I might be able to reach more than a few someones. When that day comes I hope to have something more substantial to share. Something more interesting and meaningful.

I may still write that story about my life but there have always been a couple of other ideas floating around in my head. One for a non-fiction book about my love of math and science and what it can mean for the average person. I want to write in the style of an almost religious book. I want to emphasize the beauty and awe I found while learning about space and time, physics and mathematics.

The inspiration came from my mother when she told me she felt sorry for me because I was an Atheist. She said she wishes I believed in something more, something bigger than myself. What she didn’t understand was that belief wasn’t necessary. I KNEW there was something more out there, something much bigger than me. There was a whole universe of it and it was here billions of years before me and will be for billions of years after, but I could SEE it. It was real! I felt sorry for her for never having realized that. I want to write a book to help others see what I see. A world where a belief in a God isn’t necessary because there is wonder to be found all around us and it was not made, it just is!

The second book is actually a graphic novel. A story set in a distant dystopian future. It’s an epic journey type of thing. My initial inspiration was the Lord of the Rings Trilogy. My story is nothing like that but it’s the epic journey that made me want to write an epic journey. My second inspiration comes from Stephen King’s Dark Tower Series. Another epic journey and a bit of fantasy thrown in. I might throw a bit of fantasy into mine. Then, 1984, where my love of the dystopian future began. And finally just about every other graphic novel I have ever read has shaped the story in my head.

I don’t have a lot of details, and I am not sure if I am going to try this all on my own (part of me wants to) but I have a general idea. It’s fuzzy and the shape changes all the time but there are a few constants. My lead characters are all women. It is, after all, a story about women, about what women are capable of, for both good and evil. It is about family and what family are capable of, for good or for evil. And of course there is love, and there are friendships and sacrifice and redemption. Really in my mind it is amazing!

So I have been thinking more and more about this writing thing and wondering, in this day and age is there any reason why I can’t write a book? No the most certainly is not! So the first of my New Years resolutions is to start working on these projects almost as if writing were my second job. I might even look into taking a couple classes so I have a better idea of what exactly I am doing.

I don’t think this will happen for me for a long time. A few years or so at least but the ideas are the start. I could at the very least write out al the ideas I have so far, work on some characters, and read, read, read, as much as I can, for both inspiration and some how-to’s. I might fail but I think it is time I made an effort. I know I can do the writing, it’s the finding of readers that I’m worried about, but I guess that’s not something I need to worry about for a long while. Right now I just need to focus on learning and writing. Maybe this can really be something. Maybe…..

NaBloPoMo Is Getting Hard

My eyelids are heavy and my brain is all mush. I’m so tired and this cold has finally gotten the better of me so I have decided, I won’t be at work tomorrow. Thankfully I was able to make it through the hardest (and coldest) days this week and got done what needed to get done. I never gave up. I hate that I have to stay home but I’m not really needed so instead I’m going to rest. I have to get better soon.

So this is just another update, just letting you all know I’m still here. I plan to do nothing but rest and write tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to come up with something good. NaBloPoMo is getting hard now and every night I am unsure if I can come here and pull something from my brain again. I think about giving up but only because this is such a hard time to try to do something like this. Any other month and it would have been fine.

Sigh, we are almost halfway there though, I think we can do it. To all you bloggers who are still in this, I wish you luck too.